Put that Rocket up Your Manifestation

'You gotta have a dream. If you don't have a dream, how you gone have a dream come true?' 

                                                                                               Oscar Hammerstein ii

'And the dreams that your dare to dream really do come true.' (My italics.) 

                                                                                                 Yip Harburg

Do you dream? 

Do you dream big?

Do you dream detailed? 

I would visualise and visualise my character-comedy character, Madame Galina, on tour. London and Blackpool, wearing a fur, dragging a blue trunk, staying in old-school theatrical digs, being partnered by either Michael Nunn or William Trevitt, Royal Ballet principals. 

Ours is not to reason why... Tennyson

About to move back to London from Aldeburgh, I was walking past the Sue Ryder shop when volunteer Janet banged on the window. 

Looking furtive she dragged a blue trunk out of the stockroom. 'Don't open it till you get home.  Inside's for you to wear as Madame Galina. Thrilled you've got yourself that London residency. You've worked so hard.' My residency was at Murray's Cabaret Club. 'My aunt forbade us girls ever to go on to Murray's in the sixties,' Janet added. '"Filth went in there!  The Krays, that Keeler monstrosity. Filth!".'

At home I opened the trunk.  Inside was a rabbit skin fur. 

For cheapness' sake on tour, I would book myself into the standard of B and B that thought it was too posh for hot chocolate sachets, reeked of Zoflora, and had patterned settees, walls and carpets to, as my Nan Silcox used to say, 'turn your unsuspecting eyes all kaleidoscopic.'

One retro-Blackpool landlady led me across the road to listen at the open window of a  rival's establishment:

'Hear that hoover going, chick?  Notice there's no fluctuation in the tone. She's just left it on under the table, window open, trying to kid on that she runs a clean establishment. She he wouldn't do you the courtesy - which it is really - of checking your room for tidiness before you go off to the Tower Ballroom and do your theatrics.' 

 

In 2004 my dancing idols MIchael Nunn and William Trevitt, having left the Royal Ballet and started George Piper Dances, asked me to be in their Channel 4 series The Rough Guide to Choreography. Michael was Prince Siegfried to my Odette. 

But just now, in a funk - possibly dopamine deficiency (the true global pandemic, surely?) - I'm unable to let myself go fully into a visualisation. 

'And the dreams that you dare to dream, really do come true...'

I used to be all over that idea. Well, as far as it went - you've seen above what I managed to manifest. But now, not so much. 

I've been trying to visualise a dream escape. A writing sabbatical in a clean and airy bothy in the Highlands. I see myself arrive there in early autumn, swinging my tweed portmanteau, smiling up at the leaves on their earliest turn, wearing a Victorian train driver's hat. 

But almost immediately, I switch to seeing winter coming on. And there's only an open fireplace in the bothy, not so much single as spikiest hermit glazing; and I don't drive, so how would I fetch logs? And no Amazon deliveries, so whence thermals, slipper-socks and balaclavas? I see myself begin to die slowly like an orchid, meanwhile hearing that first howl from circling wolves. 

There goes my Costa biography prize. 

The film option. 

The invitation to one of Leonardo di Caprio's parties. 

Actually, there goes any manifested aspect of my life just now other than the being found dead one I'm putting so much Third Eye into, apparently. 

The solution? Dealing with the season first, I remember the quote from John Donne: 'In heaven, it is always autumn', and hold that most gorgeous time of year in mind. I see the pages of my future best-sellers pile up on my desk. I read the title. I hear the title announced along with my name by the head honcho judge giving out the Costa Award. I hear the applause as I go up to the platform. I see the envy - no, let's keep this positive - I see the congratulation in people's expressions. 

My acceptance speech is a hymn of gratitude, to...

Ah, that's what's been missing. Gratitude. I haven't been starting and ending my day with gratitude. I've instead been starting it with, 'Oh, God, this again,' and ending it with, 'That was it, was it, again?'

So, what do I expect? 

Exactly - a tiny pile of pages on the bothy table, a larger pile of my bones on the stone floor. 

Dream, dream big, dream detailed, be grateful. 

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